I don't want cold, standoffish, dull.
I want warm, embracing, passionate.
I want you to mean what you say and say what you mean.
I want the fights, the worry, all of it.

Because all of that means there's some guy on the other end of all of that who cares about me.

I want to care about a guy who cares about me.

I miss having someone to care about. I miss getting phone calls asking how I am, wanting to see me.

I hate the games. I understand that guys in college are caught in between stages. They can either "live up" their college time, dating lots of girls (which is fine), or become committed to one girl.

Unfortunately I've seen what happens to girls who are caught in the middle of those stages.

You either wait it out until he decides one way or the other, or you just get out of that tangled web of confusion. Even if you do wait it out, you could just be one girl of many he decides to keep in contact with, or he picks you.

I want to be picked.

I want it. ...a relationship.

ughhh I can't believe I even let myself say it.